eww. just realised how cluttered my homepage looks like. i shall post some random lyrics up to make it plain-er:

Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby

...stick to the wall

yay!! hotpot tonight at Jennifer's place =D =D =D. gosh, thinking of it just makes me want to drooool. oh oh oh!! check out the lunch I made yesterday and my favourite childhood lollies I bought =]. yes, it's hello kitty, and I hope jimmy will never see this.

btw, is "lollies" not a word? why is the spell checker creating this red squiggly line under it =S

and I still have exam mess in my room and the sunroom. my bad. and I don't feel like hardcore studying until it's cleaned. food that kept me alive during exams

my ability to hog the dining table

anyway, random amnesty and iscf end of term party photos shall be up.

...wow. this is an exceptionally boring blog.

ps. "you SHALL marry a skip."
pps. happy birthday Maggie.

today onwards I shall attempt to study cos I've been bludging (hey i just realised bludging isn't a word). watched a 16episode drama yesterday within 3.5 hours. yes, I am proud, cos I have no life.

just wanted to post this up:
 
and that concludes our daily 5minute msn talk. LOL. (cos he's a nerd!! shhh!! don't tell him I said that.)

yay, Katrina posted a blog JUST FOR ME =D =D =D. and it probably serves as a better memory lane than my random instantaneous thoughts I splatter onto this page.

 
once again, credits to deviantart

...not everyone's the same
so don't expect them to be

Happy 17th Birthday Katrina!!

kekeke, love these retarded photos:   

ok, and here's a NORMAL photo: wow. I can see wrinkles on my forehead.

...rock♥stone. stone♥rock more =P

was trying to find a tool in Microsoft word last night, and I just realised how chat the help&support section is. this reminded me of the joke:

A helicopter was flying around above Seattle when an electrical malfunction disabled all of the aircraft's electronic navigation and communications equipment.
Due to the clouds and haze, the pilot could not determine the helicopter's position. The pilot saw a tall building, flew toward it, circled, and held up a handwritten sign that said "WHERE AM I?" in large letters. People in the tall building quickly responded to the aircraft, drew a large sign, and held it in a building window. Their sign said "YOU ARE IN A HELICOPTER."
The pilot smiled, waved, looked at his map, determined the course to steer to SEATAC airport, and landed safely. After they were on the ground, the copilot asked the pilot how he had done it.
"I knew it had to be the Microsoft Building, because they gave me a technically correct but completely useless answer." creds to comedycentral.com (yes, I am trying to reference all my sources)

lol. so true.

laughed so hard on Wednesday, when Chen was on monkey bars. ROFLMAO. haven't done so in such a long time. every time I reminisce about it I smile silently inside. by the way, why are my shoulders still so sore?! ><" <--- WOW. HOW FOB. yes, I'm currently trying to not use any fob emoticons when I type. shut up. don't you dare call me a hypocrite. YES YOU.

haven't studied at all these holidays, that's probably why I felt like crap when I did my math tutoring's exam yesterday. Nimashi: "It was so easy and I got bored I started highlighting the paper" thanks Nimashi, thanks. =P even WeiHao's been nerding it up, nice work bro. =D

it's pouring outside at the moment, damn it, why is it raining so much in the holidays.

found this on deviantart. hilarious. and I hope this wouldn't ruin little girl's dream of becoming a princess =P

...You can't pretend in front of my eyes
that you wanna be alone tonight
you can't pretend that you have put up a fight
you're my kryptonite

ps. wow I just realised how nicely punctuated and how little mistakes there are in this blog. my goal of becoming Kenny the maths king is near!!

credits to deviantart

...yet what a pity

holidays already. I don't think I can survive staying at home so much. first day and things aren't going well. gosh. actually, it hasn't been going well since the summer holidays. I'm only a 17yr old girl. how much do you expect.

scenario one
grandma: what did you guys have for lunch
mum: noodles at Eastwood [silence, mum stares at me]
me: what?
mum: repeat what I just said
me: why
mum: obviously your grandma didn't hear what I just said and you know that I'm not feeling well. Is it that hard for you to do something so little for me? you go to youth group and iscf so much, is this what you have learnt?!

how am I supposed to know grandma didn't hear anything. how am I supposed to know she wants you to repeat when she doesn't ask for it. how am I supposed to know you wanted me to repeat when you just stare at me. yes, I know I can read people's minds BUT NOT TO THIS EXTENT. and what does me going to iscf/youth group has anything to do with it. stop trying to pick fights with me.

I hate dislike it when people attack me like this.

and this is only one of the many bickering that occurred today.

...can you feel it?

ps. SOMEONE is a very bad driver. u-turning at the epping traffic lights with double solid lines. tut tut. but thanks for the lift and yummy chicken wings =].

pps. get over it. and in the meantime, get a life.

when I was in junior years, I used to see seniors especially year12s crying at school and me and my friends will go "bet she got dumped".

I know the reason now.

I just want to say, I dislike people spreading my marks. They're aren't even that great. I dislike others having high expectations of me, and then when I bomb out, the disappointment is amplified. and if you're wondering "but you won't stuff up". well you're wrong. I've been there, done that. it feels like crap when all these people come up and go "hey how did you go? bet you aced it like last time" and I end up having to force a smile and say "no, I failed" repeatedly because they won't believe me.

sorry if what I said offended you. you can always close this window.

talked to my bro today. I miss him. <33

I want to ramble, but I guess I've said enough for strangers people to feel quite uncomfortable.

...a complicated cycle

ps. I love my wallet guardian - the turtle

Many things are of the Autumn, the sky of Jerusalem
Shattered dreams amidst the disappearance of the promised land
How despairing is your sacred appearance
This pure hatred,
what do you want to prove?

I shouldn't have any distant thoughts of you
No matter what you keep saying
You used to be like an angel but now a devil
What a cruel joke, I can't escape, I can't calm down

Just let the hatred take its course, carrying away the injuries and the pain
Stop the tears from flowing, for mankind, find an exit
When blood dyes the sky red, use love to get through it
Hope that the angel, flying from the ashes of ruins,
lets love descend as it submerges

creds to sweet rapture

...&whatamitryingtoprove?

to make up for all my other emotional blogs.

...ilostlipidswater&mucus

thanks.

I'm hungry
I'm dirty
I'm losing my mind
Everything's fine
I'm freezing
I'm starving
I'm bleeding to death
Everything's fine
I miss you
I love you - mother mother

I was very wrong.

oh snap.

in my face.

...i'm fine.